Lately I've been reminiscing about the things I've been blessed with. Sometimes I wonder how different my life would be if I snapped out of feeling bad for myself in leadership would be. The reason at the top of my head that I didn't join Leadership my second year was that I thought I failed. That I didn't deserve to be in leadership after the mess I made in 7th grade. I wish I knew before that it wasn't exactly true and that if I did join another year that I would've known how to make sure I had improved my bad qualities. There are times when I always thought maybe I'd never let myself drag but my schedule is catching up to me. I finally caught up and realized everything I was doing wrong, I don't act clueless, never confused, learned to prioritize and wished that I was like this in 7th grade but sometimes things are meant to be that way. Since there's probably no one reading this, I'm gonna just talk about my after-leadership experience. Not knowing how I was going to do my 8th grade, I decided to try out something new and joined band. That was the turning point for me when I really learned how to be disciplined and made great friends while playing my heart out with other people and having a fun time side by side with these amazing people. Within a few months of the beginning of band, I made it into advanced band. I practiced harder and harder everyday because the was a huge gap of my playing and those of other people but I eventually made it to be one of the strongest players of the band, making it into advanced honor band. Anyways for my other classes, I did really good, nothing but A's and B's for the first semester but towards the 3rd & 4th I was always sick and very ill.
Somewhere along the line I figured out that leadership was the reason why I was able to get my shtuff together in 8th grade and understand what was wrong and what there is to let go of. For me, that was my fear. For some reason I always feared doing things wrong in leadership that it ended up being everything I do, I do it the way I feared I would. If I stayed the same way I was in my first weeks then things would've ended differently maybe I could've been great friends with Mr. Ing. It makes me laugh that I do these blogs now and I used to always miss blogs even though they were such easy things to do and are easy grades but smh at old me :( Now in High School, I finished Marching band which took up my schedule 4 days a week usually till 8:30 or sometimes midnight when there's football games to perform in the stands. Then there's concert band which takes up another day of the week so my last 2 available days are taken by student council. It's quite the task but I enjoy the challenge and helps me keep up with all of my work like how I expect it to be in the future. All of this leads back to my leadership experience which I always have been grateful to experience. If there's even a small chance you'll see this, thank you Mr. Ing, for the amazing opportunity you gave to me on the 5th of September that year. I also always heard about Jerald #2 which makes me laugh lots, but eventually I hope Jerald #2 if he hasn't yet can turn that around and learn from those mistakes. It's been a fun one. With much joy and hopefully a wish full of friends and family, Merry Christmas. -Toad, Picktwo, and Jerald
